People tend to drag themselves deeper into issues which they subconsciously know is not right, impossible or plainly unsuitable. The reason is hope. It is the key to the ideals and beliefs within our realms of optimistic thinking, the stimulus that spurs us to reach out for the possible goal. Excessively fixing our sights on the prize and ignoring the circumstances and ramifications, will on the contrary, push us off the edge and send us back into the abyss of disappointment and dejection. Hope can be the spark that we badly need to deliver us from the doldrums, but can also be the blinding factor to our objectives if we go beyond what is rational and pragmatic.

It is thus crucial to attain a delicate balance of idealism and pragmatism. However, I'm a staunch advocate of pragmatism and practical living.
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Mists of uncertainty lies ahead in my rocky path towards the future. Blocked by these clouds of confusion and worry, my visibility is compromised, and I seem to be lost in the labyrinth of good and awry choices. Which path will I embark on, it is still unclear. Nothing is clear, except for the vague goals etched in the mind. Yet as I brood over my choices, doubts begin to emerge over these very aims that I thought was clear-cut right from the start.

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I am still grateful for the fact that I am a civilian. Though not as frequent, I still think about how lucky I am to have my freedom, and my ship is being steered by me myself. Tomorrow I'm going to have a feast. I foresee some Carl's Junior and probably Katong Laksa.

I remember before my driving test, I entered the toilet to witness a mass crowd within the tiny toilet. As I was waiting for my turn, Driving Uncle A tells Driving Uncle B, "you know why Good Friday is good?" Uncle B ignores A. Uncle A continues, "Because it is a holiday!". Uncle A gives a toothy wide grin, while B forces a weak smile on his part, and carries on pee-ing.

Peace. It's Good Friday.