I am finding it difficult to be happy in school.

Uni are the best days of your life? So far it seems like a bullshit theory.

Crazily competitive and bright cohort, and yet still extremely studious. Way too mugger. That just destroys the fun of having lessons. Everyone is desperately hanging on to every word the prof says, and after lesson, masses of eager beavers will swarm the prof and inundate him with questions that are spawned from nowhere. Seriously, I can't believe every lecture can induce so many questions. Sick minded students will think of some unhumane questions to ask, which are almost inpertinent to the topic being covered that day, but just because the lecture notes contained a few words that spark their insatiable thirst for more useless knowledge, they will take the initiative to enquire further and deeper. Then again, that is how the exams will differentiate the A ppl and the B ppl. See who is more kiasu.

And the class mates. Yes it is fun, but... it's all superficial. Right after school, you are all alone. No one gives a shit about hanging out. It's all about rushing home to mug. No one cares for each other anymore. No one goes for outings or gatherings anymore. In school, it's quite some laughter and lots of banter. Right after school, goodbye and fuck off. Welcome to my uni environment.

Stressed from school work. But I'm more stressed over the intense competition.

No time for myself. 3 Weeks since I did proper exercise. Lost 2kg. Not happy.


So let me end off with a FUCK YOU to school. Or rather, the people.