I guess I wasn't the best person to do the job to begin with. Just a committed person who has given his all to complete the task.

Made it through. Could not have done it better, but perhaps they could have chosen a better person for the responsibility.

I am not doubting myself. Not at all. Just that the role needed someone who had much more experience and past achievements, and much wider networking in the field of sports.

For the first time in my life, I have truly experienced real politics, constant pressure, rigours of time management, physical and mental fatigue, and feeling of getting fucked in public. Guess this is all part of learning. All these for being the sports director of my hall. At times, I wonder why I am putting in so much effort for all this. Passion? Perhaps initially. However, after some time, the enthusiasm runs out and I guess im doing it simply because I have taken up this role already, and it is only right and responsible of me to see it through.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I already feel stronger. Once you have been knocked down, you gotta get back up, and from there, you become less fearful, and become more ready to take on anything.

The journey is coming to an end. 21 Feb marks the end of the interhall games. Currently my hall is joint 3rd. Target is 3rd, so if the hall manages to attain that ranking, I will become legendary for years to come. If fail to do so, I will most probably be forgotten very quickly, part of the cycle where past leaders get kicked away and and new people will step forth and claim they can do a better job. (Next year will be difficult, so good luck to the next sports director)

Because of this, I have totally ignored academics at the moment. No time for attending some lectures, let alone revision. Gotta catch up big time once every shit is over.

Til then, Happy chinese new year everybody, and enjoy the break~



Cheers