Monday, October 27, 2008

A7X - AFTERLIFE

I don't belong here, I gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife

`Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from here

Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you

This place full of peace and light, and I`d hope you might

Take me back inside when the time is right


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Hmm the hurtful things I see and hear from my surroundings and the people around me, i enjoy it..because it ignites my anger and sparks my passion to get stronger..thanks

so i can push myself harder physically..exactly the fuel that I need..to prove myself right and others wrong..bring it on..

alright finally going to ord...time for some peace and joy..

look forward to relief teaching...lets inspire the youth of the nation

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

dream

I'm actually writing this post, because I was inspired by a dream I had last nite..a wonderful and enjoyable one,but i doubt it will ever happen..again..in reality..so i jus wanna note it down, though u all may not even read this, but its jus a documentation of what I feel truly, about you (all)..once and for all.

Sigmund Freud's theory, states that one's deepest desires lies within one's unconscious mind, and the ultimate way to uncover it is thru dreams.

What i said in the dream to you, was "I'm sorry for the past", and you said "You dunno..."just nice before I woke up, before you actually finish speaking.

I am sorry for the past, and for how immature I was. Can't believe that at such an age back then, I behaved like that. Things will never be the same again. I accept that. This experience has helped me grow and definitely changed my perspective of seeing things in many ways. I thank you (all) for that. But the sadness, regret and disappointment I went thru was not visible to anyone at all, (except one), back then, and up til now there is still a tinge of sad feeling in me. Regret, definitely. It would be great (and my wish) to reconcile, but it will be just awkward. To cut it short, I just wanna thank you for the fun times. And that I still remember you (all) all the time and reminisce frequently about the times we had and about you, and ponder seriously how different things could have turned out to be. Thanks