It's the end of 2008. Pretty cool year. Highlight was that I ORD-ed, with my own life within my grasps, and not in the evil hands of the SAF which squeeze the life and freedom out of every poor NSF soul.

I have also discovered a new sanctuary - books. Glad that I developed this new profound love for reading, and I seem to be at peace with myself when I read late at night.

Recently found a new place to gym, and that's SAFRA Tampines. I can't stand SAF, but at least the facilities there are alright. Only a bit more expensive, but very comfortable to train over there. Few people around, with adequate amounts of good training machines. And free hair gel. Diao

I need to find a job. Feel like doing some odd jobs before moving to relief teaching. I ain't prepared for it.

I seriously enjoy solitude at times, just relaxing in my own room and slacking off. I dunno why I am saying this.

Ok Happy New Year to everyone! Cheers to 2009. And don't watch Yes Man, its quite a sucky film. Sometimes it's good to be a No Man.

Was listening to Eminem Encore once again..think the disc hasn't been played for more than a year..This is the part of the song i love most..and it demonstrates Eminem's flair and gift for dishing out fluid and witty lyrics..do read thru slowly to appreciate his talent. it's best if u just listen to him rap this part..the song rocks


EMINEM - CRAZY IN LOVE

You are the ink to my paper
What my pen is to my pad
The moral, the very fiber
The whole substance to my rap.
You are my reason for being
The meaning of my existance
If it wasnt for you
I would never be able to spit this
As intense as I do and the irony
Is you rely on me as much
as I rely on you to inspire me like you do.

You provide me the lighter-fluid the fuel my fire
Youre my entire supply
Gas, the match, the igniter.
The only way that I am able to stay so stable
Is you’re the legs to my table
If you were to break I'd fall on my face.
But I am always going to make you feel
I dont need you as much as I really need you
So you dont use it to your advantage.
But you are essential to me
You are the air I breathe
I believe if you ever leave me
Id probably have no reason to be.
You are the Kim to my Marshall
You are the Slim to my Shady
The Dre to my Eminem
The Alaina to my Haillie.
You are the word that I am looking for when
I am trying to describe how I feel inside
And the right one just wont come to my mind.
You are like the pillar that props me up
The beam that supports me
The bitch who never took half,
The wife who never divorced me.
You are like the root to my evil
You let my devil come out me
You let me beat the shit out you
Before you beat the shit out me.

And no matter how much
Too much is never enough
Maybe cuz we're crazy in loooove

jus came across some pictures of my bmt days on my fren's facebk..amazingly, they evoked much nostalgia..though training was sian, the camaraderie is unparalleled..it was sheer fun in the bunk..so much gossip and experience sharing going on..and i learnt a wee bit of guitar during my sojourn in tekong. it was fun, and definitely meaningful and memorable, a phrase which is perpetually mentioned in bmt..

started driving lessons..definitely gonna get myself an AUTO car after i pass my manual driving test..i jus hate manual, though i've only been thru 2 lessons. den again, i nd the money

been reading john grisham..damn i love his books..the dialogue can be humorous, more so than crichton. but crichton really does his homework for every single novel. grisham jus bases it on lesser research and more on appealing plots.

my life has been mundane..but i love the monotonous mellow lifestyle at the moment..im loving my life despite of entertainment levels bordering on zero..but its ok, im finding fun in other things that im doing.. the pursuit of knowledge, and pursuit of strength..yea tts life..slow and laid back


ord loh


cant believe i know so many ppl who dun have the fervent passion for soccer..where the hell are the football fans!?

shucks i feel a wee bit hungover...

went eskibar with ruiran and wf, a farewell ceremony for wf leaving s''pore..3 of us finished a bottle..had a great time, but felt a bit loopy after we finished the bottle..

its the end of an era, firstly WK ,den PETER, den now WF..

my fav author passed away..michael crichton aged 66..although his last few bks were kinda off-form, his previous books were truly outstanding and some are simply exhilirating..now its time to move on to JOHN GRISHAM.."the Client"was quite an interesting bk , as was The Partner..so i have high hopes for John..

meanwhile im gonna go take a break...recuperate first before doing anything..my head hurts..but i like this feeling

if only i hav been a little bit fitter.....ok not a little, a lot, in terms of running....i would haf become an officer..no nd suffer under brainless bigots (regular specialists) that know lesser than I do...who think of themselves as the beholder of great worldly knowledge and who regard themselves as undisputed leaders..oh come on..

ar well..lets jus take pride in wadeva minor achievements that we have attained in our lives. lift up ur chins and move on, ignoring the small talk of others about one's contributions and efforts..talk is cheap.

i am moving on..away from the status synonymous with (freedom and brain) deficiency..good riddance 11B..hello pink ic..

alright NS hasn't been as bad as it seems..at least it's better than Hitler's anti-semitic concentration camps..i have learnt a lot in army..you MIGHT have learnt some stuff too, jus gotta sit down and rewind and reflect..

being subject to goons management and senseless "training" and "welfare" (aka TOUGH training) in such a colossal organisation, you get to comprehend how working environments in the civilian world can turn horribly awful and unpleasant, if you stick squarely and rigidly to rules , and being inflexible to subordinates..at times strict authority is a necessary evil, but too much results in mini communism, appeasing the communism lust of Lenin and Stalin in their graves.

one thing I have learnt is RESPECT. (yo brother) not those type of hip hop respect shit on the streets.. It's about listening to other's views. Listen to different opinions. Just listen and think thru it. Everyone can be a genius and offer brilliant ideas. I always believed any mother father son can be an officer. It just depends on opportunity. With responsibility comes greater capability. And responsibility is what defines a commander. And ALWAYS SPEAK TO OTHERS IN A GENTLEMANLY MANNER. and never shout or raise your voice and bark instructions or opinions like a dog or a bitch, depending on gender.

NS teaches you CONFIDENCE. inter-personal communication. also improves your speech making skills. honesty in speech leads to ultimate confidence and self-assuredness. so be true to yourself before you blabber any shit.

NS gives you FRIENDS. expands your network. living together. working together. shitting together. slogging your ass off together. chao-keng-ing together. The unity is unparalleled. life long friends in the making. criticizing and mocking people who play rank.

never ever think you are better than anyone. becoz anyone can be better than you in many other ways. tt's the best lesson I have learnt.


peace out.

A7X - AFTERLIFE

I don't belong here, I gotta move on dear escape from this afterlife

`Cause this time I'm right to move on and on, far away from here

Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you

This place full of peace and light, and I`d hope you might

Take me back inside when the time is right


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Hmm the hurtful things I see and hear from my surroundings and the people around me, i enjoy it..because it ignites my anger and sparks my passion to get stronger..thanks

so i can push myself harder physically..exactly the fuel that I need..to prove myself right and others wrong..bring it on..

alright finally going to ord...time for some peace and joy..

look forward to relief teaching...lets inspire the youth of the nation

dream

I'm actually writing this post, because I was inspired by a dream I had last nite..a wonderful and enjoyable one,but i doubt it will ever happen..again..in reality..so i jus wanna note it down, though u all may not even read this, but its jus a documentation of what I feel truly, about you (all)..once and for all.

Sigmund Freud's theory, states that one's deepest desires lies within one's unconscious mind, and the ultimate way to uncover it is thru dreams.

What i said in the dream to you, was "I'm sorry for the past", and you said "You dunno..."just nice before I woke up, before you actually finish speaking.

I am sorry for the past, and for how immature I was. Can't believe that at such an age back then, I behaved like that. Things will never be the same again. I accept that. This experience has helped me grow and definitely changed my perspective of seeing things in many ways. I thank you (all) for that. But the sadness, regret and disappointment I went thru was not visible to anyone at all, (except one), back then, and up til now there is still a tinge of sad feeling in me. Regret, definitely. It would be great (and my wish) to reconcile, but it will be just awkward. To cut it short, I just wanna thank you for the fun times. And that I still remember you (all) all the time and reminisce frequently about the times we had and about you, and ponder seriously how different things could have turned out to be. Thanks

wow so long since i updated this blog

im going off to thailand next week..for Exercise Claymore..

so far heard its not tt bad over there..hope everything wil be smooth and safe and fast when my company goes there

had a drinking outing at dbl O last nite..got a little drunk..just a little..

im looking forward to claymore, coz after it, i can ord in peace..but den i oso dread it..training in some foreign land..quite exciting yet fearful..

all the best to ALPHA company! my last push, last surge..den i can ord!!!!

gym, slp, eat, play, off days, clear leave..tt will be my NS life after claymore..bring it on..

eating myself alive.......

this blog is almost completely dead already...........

so many troubles...yet so much to celebrate as well......




stop and stare

new year ahead..the year when I will get out of army and head towards civilian freedom..roaming the streets freely..doing wadeva shit i want..tts the life baby...

tho i haf stopped for quite long already, i still haf some heart burning craving for cigs occassionally..sianz

reading up on some econs recently..its like common sense made chim..

now chionging Bleach anime..quite funny..something to curb my restlessness....

alrite cheers to the new year..