something tells me that this r/s will not last. cant see a long term future in this. can foresee it ending terribly. yeah im feeling that things are getting boring and the flame is dying out. the worst part is when the other party starts to get on your nerves. thats just a sign of bad things to come. dunno how to handle this. hope things will improve. its like when the infatuation dies off, things become so much clearer. that this is not right. #superficial

even after these past few months, i am still not 100% certain this is what i want and what im searching for. still looking around for greener more beautiful pastures..possible better opportunities tinge of superficial nature. its inevitable. shitz its not right

dont know why but sometimes i feel that i may just die young.. wow sometimes it really sucks to say goodbye, without even telling that person what you feel. but still I have made a decision to stop this ambiguous affair and put an end to this. goodbye to you.

This is a moment in life where I believe in karma. And now I know why people say, never say never. Because sometimes a girl whom u say u will never like, can just create a 180degrees change.

Wtf have I gotten myself into. How can this be. Hmm.

just gotta say that things at home are spiralling out of control..

in times like this, i really need to stay strong..

Lord give me the strength.

Today's hall bash has officially affirmed my status as being too old for clubbing. No energy no mood for it anymore, even with the chicks around.

Guess I'm seriously looking to settling down. My youth on the wild side is up. 逝去日子。

Feel like I have just hit a quarter-life crisis. Feeling kinda lost in life. Wonder how things will pan out over this academic year. Fucks.

Then again, I am actually very content with my life. Great friends and family, nice schooling life, awesome hall life, good health and fitness, girls etc.

What constitutes a great day alone for me :

Wake up at noon. Have a good heavy brunch.
Go back to take a short 2 hour nap.
Wake up again, wash up and head to the gym. Gym for 1 hour.
Swim after gym for 1 hour. Sun tan and static exercises on the suntanning deck.
Have a great heavy dinner.
Head home for a shower.
Watch a good movie on Funshion.
Watch a soccer match(if happen to have any live matches)
Drink some whiskey while watching TV
Off to bed.


Peaceful

I'm feeling happy for everyone. Great to see you so happy, could see it from your eyes.

Feeling good during this holidays. School is about to begin though. Orientation shit gonna start, but I'm feeling kinda too old for such things.

Sources of motivation are hard to find at times. But I have found some lately.

I guess not many people blogs nowadays. I'm blogging because I'm just rreally farking bored and not sleepy yet (3:36am right now).

Here's to a good academic year ahead.

Stumbled upon an abandoned blog of my Sec sch friend. Read a post written in 2004. Saw a nice description of the class people, including myself. Evoked lots of nostalgia, and really set me thinking. How some have fallen far off early high expectations, how some have risen up and hit it big, how much all of us have changed (some bordering on the extreme).

I miss those times. I may be having fun now, but there are way too many "what if"s looming around in my mind. Different paths that I could have embarked on in the past. Really wish I could see how different decisions would have panned out.

Why the f I am writing all this now at 3am, when I am supposed to cram for an upcoming exam, I have absolutely no idea. I have totally lost the motivation to mug hard. University life is about learning, not just studying books. Learning comes in so many forms. This is also the last few years whereby you can really enjoy yourself, make stupid mistakes and pranks, drink your asses off and just skip lectures the next day.

Oh fuck I feel slightly more enlightened.